STORIES OF ME

when you waering a mask, you were never be happy. 

i don't know who am i exactly. am i wearing a mask or i'd just be myself. am i honest with myself?? or all this time i'd lying to all people include myself. what i know is i am fake person. i can accept people heart without knowing my heart is still confused whether i love them back or i just playing around because i'm lonely. i hate to be alone. but when i'm around people i still feel like a loner. people keep leave me in the end. i just follow the flow. i'm not an actresses but i act like one. in the end i am a good actor. am i really love him? sometimes i think i like him but sometimes everything chocked me up. i can't breath. i can't even say i love him with my heart honest. i feel trap inside a cage. i want to be free, i can't cooperate with any people relation. i want to be myself. but "Who Am I?" i don't know. who i want to be. i don't like soccer but i watch it. i pretend like i love soccer. i remember the legendary player. i stay up to watch world cup. i don't even stay up to date to new songs. but whenever friend ask me " did you listen to this song? it wierd but nice" " yeah, it's nice though" i love korean so much. their songs their band their variety shows their dramas. but people hate it. they keep bashing it. when they bashed korea i really mad but i play cool. like nothing happen. they said koreans fans are "Bodoh" and i just reply "betul fanatik korea tu bodoh" but i'm one of korean's fan. why? because i am FAKE. i wearing a mask. i not that smart. i want to look intelligent. i study hard but in front of people i just said " just study this and there. not much. not really study person" who am i?

just a fake person around fake people.

in the end,

we all think about the top and struggle our lives,but if we turn to the sides a little bit,there're a bunch of flowers that smell so sweet

sincere,
the one who keep abonding her relation with her creator.