assalamualaikum and good evening peeps.
it's been a while since i update my blog and fuh lap sikit skrin. banyak habuk :)
and now im counting how many days that left for me to live in this country. it's been almost 2 month im here. banyak benda belajar especially how to open my mind to be more wise and open minded. x de la mcm kata kat bawah tempurung.
MANSFIELD UNIVERSITY OF PENNSYLVANIA
yeah, im updating my blog using university computer. haha. sebelum datang sini i feel really scared cause yeah im coming alone. travel far away from family, jatuh sakit stress tension kerja banyak x dak sapa nak dengar nak tolong nak ambil kesah. but one thing i know travel make the distance between you and your creator. travel make you open your mind as wide as it can be. travel help you to learn to be polite and stand on you own feet. do your own work without relying on other people, it makes you stronger without you know. the first time i came here. i was so quiet cause my english are so bad. i feel so embarrassed to talk to other international friend cause english also not their mother tongue but better than me. i was so afraid i cant make any friend. first class was not very good for me cause i dont really understand what was the prof. blabbering about. he keep talking about atoms, molecular, polar bonds etc etc. my first lab i get scold because i didnt do my pre lab assignment. i almost get 0 and almost get kick out from lab. basically my starting here not as beautiful as other people. i come back room almost cry. i want to go back Malaysia. i miss family. i miss malaysian food. i cant eat meat cause here not HALAL. being a vegetarian is not easy. but look where i am now. i still dont have a lot of friends but there are friends who can accept me with all my imperfection. we embrace each other belief. we here for each other. and im still learning on my english and they patiently helping me. im happy here with them and not that im not missing all my friends in malaysia. they still the best among the best. my mind are now open widely to accept other people opinions , culture and vegetarian. haha, im more wise about my healthy and calories, checking ingredients before picking up food, checking calories, work out to be slim. HAH!!!
but after all these hardship. im not saying that study abroad tu susah but throughout this hardship i start to learn more about myself. without anyone helps i do everything myself solve the problem by myself and i'll becoming the strongest person that i hope i can be but i don't know how.
ALL THE HARDSHIP WILL BE PAID IF YOU START BEING GRATEFUL
